“Find something you love to do, and you’re never work a day in your life.”
My Love for writing has given me so much joy over the years. When I was seven years old I was given a typewriter, showing my age now. 😊 I still didn’t know the alphabet so I couldn’t read a word, but I’d get one of my Enid Blyton Books and match the letters from the book to the keys on my typewriter and copy out pages upon pages. I especially love creative writing; I love making new worlds, changing already existing ones & romance. You can work out how much of a romance nut I am with how many films I put in my blog post about ‘100 Romantic Movies with Happy Ending‘; there’s a lot!
“You might not write well every day. But you can always edit a bad page. You can’t edit a blank page.”
I’ve never finished writing a story, so nothing has ever been published, but that’s because of fear. Fear that I wouldn’t be good enough, fear of actually putting myself out there and mostly the fear of rejection if I did. I’m still one hundred per cent fearful, this blog was and is still a terrifying thing for me. What if people hate it, what if nothing in it makes sense and what if my writing is unreadable? Those thoughts are always running through my head, but, I can’t let fear stop me from doing what I love… My circumstances in my teenage years were turbulent, to say the least. So, I was never able to go to school full time and was never able to take my GCSE’S.
“It’s never going to happen if you don’t try.”
Getting an English GCSE has been something I’ve always wanted to achieve. In 2016 I went to college for English GCSE. I was so lucky to be able to have the opportunity to do this, but I was fortunate to have an incredible teacher. She was fantastic; she loved the subject she was teaching but also loved to teach.
I took my English GCSE exams in June 2017 after going to college every Wednesday evening for 3 hours. They have changed the grading system which meant I wouldn’t get a C, instead I would be graded on the new system which was 1-9. The whole way through the class I was aiming for a 4 or 5 (Low or High-level C).
“Your positive action combined with positive thinking results in success.”
Then on results day, I was stood there nervously holding the white envelope with my name on. Did I want to open it? No! Fear gripped me but my partner and children were with me. They had every bit of faith in me. 🙂 I opened it up and accidentally scan read my grade. I thought that it must be a mistake and that I read a code by mistake. Then I looked at it and saw that I had got a 6… That’s a B…
I couldn’t believe it! I ran back into the college and asked someone in the results room for help. The guy looked at me with horror in his eyes. The look of shock on my face I think he assumed I didn’t get a pass because when he looked at my grade the guy relaxed, smiled and said “You got a high B” he handed me my results back and said “Well I don’t need to give you any advice, congratulations” and he walked away.
Later on, in the week I spoke to my teacher and she said by ‘High B’ the guy meant that I got three marks away from a seven (Low A). I don’t know if I wanted to know that I got so close to a low A, but it made me realise that I could succeed as long as I put myself out there and did the work.
“It’s going to be hard but hard is not impossible.”
It wasn’t easy to achieve a six as I suffer from Dyslexia. I find it extremely hard to learn new information and once I manage to keep it in my head, I find it difficult to recall when I need it most. This being said, I learnt the power of reading & studying. I spend a lot of time every evening doing homework.
I am so very proud of this, English has always been something that I love to lose myself in. I’m not sure where I’ll go from here, I could look into completing a creative writing course but who knows… All I know is that I’m finished with holding myself back from the things that I love to do.
“If you think you can do it, you can.”
That’s one of the reasons I also started this blog… College is over and my weekly time to Geek out about English has gone, but not anymore, this blog is honestly filling a void in my life…
Do you love writing and reading? If not, what’s the thing you love to geek out most about?